Waiting

Room silence
eyes dart
skip across faces
like nervous
squirrels
wary
fearful
anxious
starving

see me
the silent voices
croon
don't see my scarf covered head
don't see my pale face
etched lines
drug drained skin
pain filled eyes

see me
I danced past midnight
I skiied the bunny slope
I ran a marathon
I sewed a costume
I won first prize
I was the cutest
I had the nicest smile
I saved that dog
I missed my football game for you
I jumped the highest
I got a home run
I gave my last dollar
I didn't cry
I can whistle
I have the longest legs
I bowled an 85 or 185 or 285
I made spaghetti
all by myself

see me
I'm not
what I have
I am
me
see me
so I can
see me
too