Three Years

December
small breasts
not much
but mine
small enough to find
a lump

January
the mammogram
the second mammogram
the ultrasound
the news

February
the tests
the surgeon
and what's most import
the question
what's an oncologist

March
diagnosis
more questions
fewer answers
chemo

April
new friends
new vocabulary
new emotions
more chemo

May
tired tired tired
sick sick sick
afraid afraid afraid
angry angry angry
but so tired
more chemo

June
almost done
almost done
my new mantra
almost done with
chemo

July
still tired
still afraid
still angry
but no more
chemo

August
new friends
new vocabulary
new emotions
surgery

September
new friends
new vocabulary
new emotions
radiation

October
radiation isn't a burn
it isn't an abrasion
it's a lack
of skin

November
last day
no more radiation
no more surgery
no more chemo
no more cancer
please please please
no more

December
small breasts
not much but mine
small
one smaller
without it's lump
of
me