Friends

hearts
entangle slowly
almost
imperceptably

hi
how are you
can you take notes for me
wanna get somethin' to eat
what are you doin' later
call me
did you finish that assignment
how's your mom
did you forget to call
what time do you go to work
are you okay
here's your sandwich
I still owe you for that book
did you get the results
do you want to talk
because
we're best friends
you
know
yes
I'm glad
yes
I know

the silence of
a thousand dreams
can never
take
away

that single breath
infinity
that tells my heart
to stay

the movement of
a million stars
will never cease
to be

for I will hold
you in my heart
through all
eternity

Waiting

Room silence
eyes dart
skip across faces
like nervous
squirrels
wary
fearful
anxious
starving

see me
the silent voices
croon
don't see my scarf covered head
don't see my pale face
etched lines
drug drained skin
pain filled eyes

see me
I danced past midnight
I skiied the bunny slope
I ran a marathon
I sewed a costume
I won first prize
I was the cutest
I had the nicest smile
I saved that dog
I missed my football game for you
I jumped the highest
I got a home run
I gave my last dollar
I didn't cry
I can whistle
I have the longest legs
I bowled an 85 or 185 or 285
I made spaghetti
all by myself

see me
I'm not
what I have
I am
me
see me
so I can
see me
too

Silence

I don't know how
or who
or when
or why
to tell

I don't want
pity
just compassion
guilt
just understanding
fear
I have enough for
both of us

after all
I am still
me

maybe I just
want
a hug

Retrospect

I'll know
tomorrow
or was that
last week

the results
will be in
on Wednesday
or was that
last Tuesday

the decision
will be made
Tuesday
but no Tuesday
came

I will know
what I now know
when I have known
yesterday
tomorrow