am I dying
my mind
searches my body
for clues
....
nothing

I'm the same
as yesterday
last year
ten years ago

is it a trick
I should feel something
other than that
lump
where it shouldn't be

I know
I know
I won't live
forever
but when I'm lying
in the dark
and everyone's asleep
I stare at the stars
and think
but won't I?